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21 August 2007 @ 08:42 pm
Repo of What Is Mine  
It's been so long, hasn't it? Or maybe not that long, but feels long enough?

So much changes in such a short time, but so little changes when it comes down to it. People's personal lives have changed, I can see that. The rants are still there though. The little complaints, the little self indulgences.

Maybe when he asks "How do you feel?" it's a boost to the ego and to make sure you had a good time? Can you be as equally selfish as equally giving?

Feeling the need to reach out, but not really sure where or to who. Maybe that's the thing though, maybe I reach out and a shining wondrous thing grabs hold. One can hope. One can always hope.

Not much has changed here. Still looking for the Inner Temple. It's a lifetime search. I feel very strongly sometimes that I have found it. Other times, I feel lost and in the dark. Even with guides, sometimes you just take a path, and it ain't quite what you expected. So you go back and you try again.

I've gained some weight. Then again, I lost some more vices. I no longer smoke. I don't even remember the day I quit. I just did. I think not knowing the day, how long ago it was, has helped. Counting up time has always been like running in mud uphill. Counting down is so much more fun.

Also, coffee, soda, anything containing high fructose corn syrup and the like are also gone. Today has been a fuzz without coffee. Moments of complete, clear concentration. Moments of totally brain farts. No headaches anymore though.

Now, here comes the important part of the post...

How are you?
 
 
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